Snow in May...marvelous..absolutely fanatstic....NOT.

Yeah, we had a shitstorm blow in town the other day, bringing in snow..you know the kind of snow...wet, sloppy flakes that land with a splat sound. Times like this I wished I had windshield wipers for my specs...and I also wish I hadn't put my winter clothes away. The wind has been howling outside for the past 2 days, and its really friggin annoying. Last night, I went out back and noticed that the wind had moved our temporary garage we'd put up for the truck. So Mom and I had to go outside in the blowing snow and push it back to where it was supposed to be, and then Mom had to back the vehicles out of it, lest the wind blow the damn garage down and damage the truck. By the time we got back in we were both freezing and our coats were soaked from the sloppy snow.
Other than that, I am feeling like I'm coming back to normal over Cosmos death. Tho I did choke up when I saw his empty cage Mom had placed on the deck. There is an emptiness felt in the home, and I think the other birds feel it too, as they have become even more affectionate to Mom and I in the past couple of days. I know it will take time for Mom to heal- he was her pride and joy, so I'm just trying to do my part in getting things that need doing done so she doesn't have to. Today I had to get enough prep done in the restaurant for the treeplanters coming in tomorrow night. There's about 100 of them, so we had to make sure everything is prepped so we're not stuck. But the upside ( can't let this blog be all about negativity) is the we are open at 4pm, due to the fact it's the long weekend. So I have a chance to get a bit more sleep than what I've been getting as of late.
I don'tfeel like my ranting self just yet..this blog entry seems as bland as tapioca pudding. I do hope everyone else is enjoying some lovely weather. Hmmm...Blogger question..I hope you'll all answer so I know you're still out there...What has been the lastest date in the year that you've had a snow storm? Formyself...it was out in Northern Alberta...got snow on May 28th. That sucked cause that was the day the community pool was supposed to open for the summer, and they ended up postponing it til the next weekend. Anyhoo, let me know.

A very Sad Day...

Yup...today my Moms Alexandrine Parrot, Cosmo, died. She had come upstairs to spend time with him. She picked him up and carried him to the window where he could look outside and see the lake, and he chirped in his happy way like he did whenever he was with her. She was bringing him back to the cage, when he gave her a kiss, and collapsed in an instant in her hands. She is absolutely heartbroken at present, as am I. People who know me know I am an animal lover. She is even more so than I. So with a heavy heart, I called a friend of the family to help me find something appropriate to put him in and we went out to bury the poor fella. We found a spot on the edge of town that seemed good, and went to work digging. We gave him a decent burial, butI won't show mom where he is for a little bit. We think he died of a heart attack, tho it seems unusual for a bird his age (he was 8..thats what we were told by the previous owner). SO either he was older, or the two owners that came and went before Mom didn't take good care of him. It definately wasn't us...those birdies are treated like royalty around here. So After I got back, we were busier than all hell, and I ran to help mom get the supper rush under control. Finally I got a chance at 11:30pm to come upstairs to get online to tell y'all. I'm sad, but I'm okay...I just worry about how Mom is feeling about this. Send a good thought for her. Thank you. Thats all for now.

Okay, so we're cool apparantly..

Buddy emailed me and clarified. Thanks, but still...if people are too busy to chat on MSN, they should just come out and say so. Anyhoo, another friend emailed me back and gave me a reply I just don't know what to think about it. Whatever. I emailed him back and called him a smartass. Anyhoo..much thanks for all those who have been nice to send a comment my way. Mom has to get her finger checked every morning now cause infection has set in, and still causes her pain. So I worry. This morning, I slept thru my alarm cause of sleep deprivation, and she woke me up, when it was my job to ensure she got to her appointment on time. I also had a doctors appointment I was late for. I just remember dragging my ass out of bed, and rushing to get ready. I was 15 minutes late, so I didn't get much time with the doc. But I did have a good chat with her on my stress levels, which she says I need to fix unless I want to suffer burnout. Apparantly, the only time they hospitalize someone for exhaustion is when their near death here, due to the shortage of beds. I know, a grim thought, but the truth. So I have to deal with all this. Thank God today wasn't too busy, tho I felt like I was working in a haze. I worked from 10am to 11pm tonight straight. Tomorrow I'll have a busier day (stock coming in to sort and put away, plus extra prep for the weekend), but I will get it done.
Well, gotta go...i need sleep sooo badly....night.

A very trying week...

So Mom had a bit of an accident..cut her finger quite badly..shes got the stitches and all that. She'll be ok. She just can't work for a while. Dads out West, which leaves yours truly to hold down the fort. I can do this...hell, I am doing it...just so tired. I should be asleep right now, but i needed to get all this shit off my chest. I'm sure you understand.
Got me to thinking to about friendships as well. I'd emailed a few people needing a bit of encouragement (I'm the type of person who asks a friend for help if I need it). Alas no reply. From anyone I contacted.I understand they're busy with their lives and all, but i think I need to change my definitions of friendships. I could tell with one he was not interested in speaking with me when I caught him on MSN. I say to people...okay...I get it alright? I'm not oblivious to your signals....I've gotten quite adept at reading people...so if you have something to say, just say it. Quit trying to be nice when you don't want to. Don't worry about hurting my feelings...not your concern. Believe me, I've had worse hurts in my life. So unless he can just say what he wants to say but can't, I'll just not bother him. If I am misreading him (Very rare) then he needs to contact me and say so when he reads this. I just hope his move to Edmonton and his new life is rewarding and all that good stuff.
As for myself, I'd better get to sleep..have an appointment with my doctor in the morning. Don't worry Blogger friends..nothing bad. Tho sometimes I secretly wish I could be very sick just to see who my friends are. But by the way things are progressing, that won't be necessary.
God..I just need a hug right now. Thats all I want. If you're out there and actually give a damn...send good thoughts. Thank you.

Okay..an update for y'all...

Got my MP3 player...Hoooooweeeee! Super sweet...everytime I use it, I find out more cool stuff about it. Funny tho...the past little bit, I've been so busy with working that I haven't had a chance to go for a walk. Am feeling a bit resentful for Dad going out west, buying a business, and leaving me and mom here with the local yokels. Now if I want to go for a walk, it cuts into my sleep time, so for now, I must forgo the walks, as I'm bitchy enough as it is. Insomnia is a way of life for me (again). Sometimes, it can't be helped..I'll be on Messenger and a friend pops up to instant message me a hello, and we start typing...then lo and behold its 4 am. Other times, I just surf the Net, or play Solitaire...mostly listening to comedians like Dennis Leary and George Carlin. Hilarious, tho some may not like their jokes on religion and stuff. Oh well. I try to get to bed at a decent hour, but it never seems to work out. I toss and turn so much that I'll eventaully sleep and awaken to find I've tied my own self up. Now the insomnia is mainly due to the fact that my legs are so swollen and painful from working on my fett over 12 hours a day, I want to cry. Seriously, the other day, my calves were swollen to twice their normal size...the skin felt too tight. Damn..I suppose I should get it checked out.
Since I'm in a slightly bitchy mood, I'd like to share with ya'll a comment that a customer (male OF COURSE..with grubby hands to boot) telling me I should be able to retire now. I said "HA!!" (I'll admit, a little too sharp to be polite...doubt he'll say something stupid like that again). As if I could retire. Whats he really trying to say here? Is he merely stating the obvious? That I work 10 times harder than him? Well, yes thats true. I do envy those with 9-5 jobs. No such thing as 8 hour shifts in Strangers camp...more like anywheres from 12-18hr days. Seriously. The last day off (if you could call it that, considering the amount of dishwashing and cleaning up afterwards) was my Easter. Before that, last September. In fact, I've noticed with growing alarm that I'm now clocking more hours in the restaurant than my mom day by day. Yes, its good that she can have a rest, and I've been giving her huge breaks from the restaurant every day for the past year and a month. However, no one has really given me a huge break lately, and I'm starting to feel the burn in a bad way. I told mom tonight that my legs hurt, and she replied "You want mine?". Ummm...noooo. The past week my whole body has ached in a bad way. Not much I can do aboutit I guess...Mom wouldn't think of hiring someone to help us from time to time. Hmmm...how could I put this in perspective for all of you who weren't "raised in the kitchen" as I was? Lets see..................I could drop on a dead faint on the floor, and Mom would tell me I need to take the pizza out of the oven. Grim yeah. Hopefully this achewill leave my legs tonight so I can get a decent nights sleep, which is what I intend to do here in a short bit,.....right after a few games of Solitaire..................................